Sun rise over the city is in stark contrast to sunrise over Whitecrest, but it is still lovely and captures the essence of a new beginning- a new day - a new chance! I have been spending nights again with Caleb and with sleep derivation staring me down, I found myself frustrated and weary at 4 am, trying to help Caleb get comfortable. He looked up at me with one beautifully clear eye and said "don't be mad".
Now I can't speak for you, but I could stand to lose about fifty pounds of anger that has been stored over the years- this one little,profound sentence is what will speak to me today! Can they liposuction anger yet?
Caleb has managed to pull off yet another miracle - the day nurse from yesterday walked in this morn and said "Is this the same boy?" and I was tempted to say no..because he seems to change before my very eyes as well. He has always managed to have a bit of chameleon in him, and it serves him well. Now we need calm seas for a bit so we can stay the course!
I love the saying " When the going gets tough- the tough get going...If someone had not already coined that phrase, I surely would have come up with it while watching Kai and Max under duress. Max, always the strong and silent type has continuously been there by Calebs' side, never leaving, never wavering..he can just sit for hours and hold and rub and hold and rub Caleb's hand. He looks into Caleb's soft blue eye with his strong doe eyes and gives a look to Leb so filled with compassion that I have to turn away for fear of crying. Never mind that he is the youngest of the three- Caleb never dares to pull on Iv lines with Max around - it just doesn't happen!
Kai, the intellectual surfer, grilles the surgeon on all kinds of topics related to Caleb's condition- to the point that the Nero doc suggested to me that he should become a surgeon himself- his questions are measured, poised and researched.
Jan always brings comic relief to the table and Aunt Carol ; well lets just say you don't want to mess with her- - so you see after all your accolades - all I really do is sit back and relax! Caleb and I are in good hands.
I am mindful today that I could not be doing any of this half as well as I am without the help of my new found friends and "old" extended family. We are back on our road again and following it, winding as it may be and we are grateful to all of you along the way - My lions, and scarecrows and my beloved tin men and I say with great clarity "there's no place like home!" mumsie