I have two very close girlfriends who touch my heart on a daily basis. One of them I would describe as iceing on the top of a cake; the effervescence in champagne; or the phospherescence on the sea depending on the day or on her mood. She recently reminded me of the exercise of writing a list - and making it specific- when you want something to materialize. Write it down! She tells me she compiled her list last year and a partner ( a serious player) has arrived in her life and she will be moving to Arizona. All night long I contemplated this list making and feel certain that it works on the principal that what you give your attention to grows. (Abraham/Hicks). I will start my list today for Caleb and invite you to join me with your wishes for him.
I think it is those times when we think things are done, finished , that new ideas and hopes spring forth. It is also the time to re-examine our beliefs and to realize that what we "see" is not always the whole truth. I told you about the little rooster meeting his demise. What in truth happened was that at some point I could no longer watch this dog mauling my peep so I walked away, assumed he was a goner, spent two nights in utter disbelief and guilt over being a bad farmer, spent a good amount of time feeling horrible......and yesterday Kai called me over because he had spotted a chicken in the grasses..my rooster is back.
Time to make my list for Caleb - time to concentrate on what will be instead of what is..time to set my sights on the invisible .
Caleb is back at work on a semi -part time basis..both on the flats and on the shore in the gardens with me. When I tell him each morning that he is getting better - his response is "I hope so".
I am asking him to respond with "I know so".
Today is a rough day for the boys- it would have been Jan's 57th birthday. We are going over to his place after work and will continue working on the memorial garden that we along with the neighbors, have begun to plant.
I have a monthly calender with the names attached where birthdays apply and long ago I penciled in a big red heart next to June 5th and Jan's name. Our big red hearts wish him peace and love as we will always be beating away with thoughts of him. Happy birthday Jan.