As I watch from afar, and nurture from near, I am always smitten with the integrity with which you live your life...in spite of all that has happened to you...... while I tend to be suspicious...you have not altered your belief in people, you have not stopped smiling, when tears are far easier for me to let loose than laughter, you are positive and giving, while I fight to stay afloat and draw in, and you beilieve in yourself, while I have discomforting doubts.
Like marriage vows, you repeat your intentions , and I in the congregation believe in you and hope that you will beat the odds.
You have taught me more about life than I have learned in a lifetime., and you have caused the
temperature of my heart to be altered from a chill to a fine burning ember that glows for you.
Late at night when I cannot any longer sleep, I steal away to your room. I lie down to watch your brewing breath and I snuggle while you suck in life in a way that I have never been capable of doing. I have often wondered how one human can be so negative, while another meters with magic.
Life is given to us as a gift, but not many of us take it... you, my Caleb, prior to your accident and still now, know the fine art of receiving.......We are nearsighted beings..so busy with the things that take time and which give us a false sense of importance, but you have slowed to a fine tuned, sensual song, and while you dance the day away......other's are rushed; while you sit silently, other's are haughty, vying to be heard, while you dream, other's are distorting.... you have bravely taken your life beyond and to a breaking point, which was such a fragile move, and in it's fragility has become a strength...and while you sit back and observe....... I am observing you -
how I am smiiten with you...really, no different than the first second I laid eyes on you!